"i'm so tired. i feel like my feelings are dragging me around. there are too many, but now i'm just tired of them. they are so redundant. i am so predictable. i am sick of the same cycle with myself. here i am again, in some sort of inner battle, with one side always kind of only half fighting. that side being the one that says i should try to get out of this cycle, it is saying that i should be careful with other people's feelings. haven't i learned that yet? but i don't know. maybe this is just how it should be. maybe doing what you want, when you want, regardless of anything, really is okay. it sure feels okay when i am asleep in the curve of your arm and side. that is something really true. isn't it okay to just want that?"