@&^%*!!!
i honestly can't stand trying to interact with people and they just choose to ignore me whenever they feel like it. well thanks for wasting my time, great to know not to anymore. it just makes me hate myself more. it makes me feel like people are disgusted with me, they probably are and i am too. i really am unhappy with myself and the way i am. it's such a bother. i really see no point trying to get along with everyone, if they're all the same. it's not like i can read their mind and neither can they. it hurts me. they don't even stop to think how it makes me feel. they're so selfish and rude. i don't care about friends, don't want any, don't need many. if anyone wants to be my friend from now on, they have to do the first move. not me, i'm done with all that. and even with these so called friends, i don't really feel as close to them as my one and only friend that's always there for me. i hate being so vulnerable, stop being so full of pity. i'm done. i need to be.
and i seriously need to stop saying "honestly" or "to be honest".
it's always the truth either way, and it's annoying.