"i think i want to cry a little right now because i haven't seen my crush in like over a week and it makes me sad because lately school has been so dull and every time i see him my heart skips a beat. i love that feeling, it feels like my heart is coming back to life for a bit, for that moment and that person. i just want a nice lovely sweet kiss and to hug each laying down in a meadow. i just lay down on his chest and hear him breath and his heart beat. i just want that with someone so dear with me. this desire is killing me. why can't i just have him. can i have someone, will i ever have anyone?"