how long has it been? perhaps two to three years that i've had these feelings for you. unsure what they are, where we are, you and me. what are we doing? why are we like this? where are our feelings for each other now? yet i'm so unsure about you now. have you forgotten? it's like you don't even know who i am, how could you forget? it feels like i'm always trying to reach out to you but you just keep getting farther away. i want you to see me. i want you to be with me. being able to see you and hold you would give me so much life. in fact, it would make me cry of true happiness. i still yearn for you, but do you? if you don't, tell me, so you can tear me apart and make me realize to give up on you. i really like you, perhaps more like i love you. yet you seem to not be able to hear my confessions or notice my affection. i don't want it to be this way, not anymore. i'm sure you've grown tired of me, just tell me. so i can drift away from you before you unexpectedly cut it off and hurt me tremendously. and i can't say i'll be ok this time. so please tell me already. so i can stop all this pain already.